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Desperate White Supremacists

We may all easily recall Desperate Housewives, the 2004 to 2012 television series on the ABC network. But, we may not be sufficiently savvy to perceive desperate white supremacists in these United States. Perhaps this commentary will shed some light on the topic that may become a network television series, too, in the not-so-distant future on Sinclair Broadcasting Group nationwide for rednecks everywhere.

Look no further than to Charlottesville, Virginia in August 2017 to find clear-cut and very obvious examples of desperate white supremacists. Unfortunately, I suspect that after this commentary appears online, there may be other examples elsewhere outside of the Commonwealth of Virginia. I easily would anticipate such a violent outburst in the great state of Texas, for instance.

In August 2017, I happened to publish a fictional story that stands as an antithesis to desperate white supremacists. I offer this to anyone who is against desperate white supremacists. What I wrote is entitled Baja Clavius: Moon Men Deep Inside. There is a free PDF to download, so no purchase is necessary, and there is no obligation to buy anything at all:

I am not attempting to cash in on the debate over white supremacy here in my country. I happened to have lived in the Commonwealth of Virginia for nearly 20 years, but now I live in Las Vegas, Nevada. What I wrote took decades to finish starting back in 1990. This work (finally!) was completed years before Trump promised to “make America great again” and other such blatant pandering to desperate white supremacists going on these days here in our beloved country, the United States of America.

If you are reading this you deserve to have an alternative to the pandering to desperate white people by Trump and his kind even if you happen to be one of those desperate white supremacists. Trump got elected primarily because white people in the United States were sincerely and undeniably afraid of being displaced culturally and politically by blacks from everywhere and by Hispanics from Mexico, in particular.

Whether Trump believes any of that pandering propaganda he espouses is beyond my expertise to discern. He may be brilliant. He may be insane. Who knows? I am not qualified to make that determination either way. So, you have to judge Trump for yourself.

But, I am qualified to write Baja Clavius: Moon Men Deep Inside as much as anyone is qualified to write science fiction nowadays. I promise you that this work of science fiction is an alternative to hatred of blacks and Hispanics. Download your FREE copy right now and set yourself free from the Trump propaganda machinery (otherwise known as Fox News Channel, Sinclair Broadcast Group, and names we know and love so well.)

Baja Clavius: Moon Men Deep Inside is an alternative to the commonly-held belief in these United States in an interventionist deity. He is popularly known as God the Father and/or God the Almighty.

If you believe the undeniable genius of the Dutch artists of the Renaissance, then you already believe that this interventionist deity sports a big white beard and has blue eyes. And, yes, of course, like the Dutch Masters, God in Heaven above has light-colored skin.

This Dutch-defined interventionist deity of certain Caucasian origins lives “up there” somewhere in another dimension otherwise known as Heaven. At God’s side is his only son, our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. And, there’s also a third deity as well. He is named the Holy Ghost. He completes the trinity that we all are supposed to worship if we are expecting to be going to Heaven when we die.

I was under the age of 10 when I was socialized (i.e., forced through years of brainwashing) to believe that these three gods-in-one are the basis of The One True Church. In comparison, all other religions are known to be “fake news” but we didn’t have the gall to use that sorry phrase back in the 1950s which Trump (who is older than me) believes was the sole time that American was, indeed, what he calls “great.” What Trump means, of course, is there once was at that time in these United States that had far less of cultural impact of black people as well as people from Central America. Those days are gone forever and cannot be ushered back by anyone.

I was born and raised in California. There I met many black people and people from Mexico, specifically. So, because of my upbringing in California, I naturally have a died-in-the-wool suspicion of people (like Trump) who were born in New York City. Nor do I accept the lies I’ve been sold about black people and people from Mexico.

I learned to think for myself. I learned to evaluate people based on the content of their character rather than the color of their skin or their country of origin.

Happily for me, over the decades I have met many wonderful people who were born in New York City who someone did NOT turn out to be chiefly arrogant and aggressive but lack sufficient content of character as do Trump and all his offspring.

My writing and my 3D digital art, and, especially Baja Clavius: Moon Men Deep Inside are, taken together, intended as a celebration for those of you out there who think for yourselves and who have learned the secret of evaluating people for their content of their character. But, who am I? Well, the honest truth is: I am a white gay male atheist over the age of 65 who was born in the leftist state of California.
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Alaska versus Hawaii

Alaska versus Hawaii
— a fatal adventure


A man from Alaska and one from Hawaii must fight each other until one kills the other during a reality television show aboard a mysterious cargo ship sailing the South Pacific Ocean. This illustrated short story (upgraded and expanded from a previously abridged version) is available as a free downloadable pdf below that includes multiple very explicit full-color images.

Gang rape was a fact of life when the Alaska versus Hawaii reality television show was in production.



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Stories by Nullo

The many man on man BDSM stories written by prolific writer Nullo posted elsewhere at the Desouza of Vegas website are collected here all on one page. Titles listed without a posting date first appeared on this site during early 2016.

Keywords / Themes:

BBQ – cooking by barbecue or grill
CAP – captive held against his will
CBT – cock and balls torture
CBY – cowboy or wild west
CUT – cock and/or balls castrated
EAT – eating flesh or internal organs
HNG – hung by the neck
MIL – military or warfare
STR — strangulation

“Extreme S&M” by Nullo. Should be read in the order presented:

The Cavern

Desouza of Vegas homoerotic illustrated fantasy.


I woke up and I was naked at the bottom of a deep stone cavern.


I heard a frightening sound way up above me and I feared for the worst.


I felt the wind from his huge wings as he descended upon me.


He stopped just above me and made me feel insignificant compared to him.


I felt that he wanted to hurt me and I was utterly defenseless.


He grabbed me and carried me vertically as he flew.


He held me tightly as he flew up along those cold stone walls.


The quick change in air pressure popped my ears and I blacked out as he carried me in his arms.


When I woke up, we were floating together above the clouds.


He suck me until I shot off. He flew away and I fell downward from the sky.
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Madeira Desouza portrait

Madeira Desouza of Las Vegas
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About Madeira Desouza


What attracts you to men?


Madeira Desouza: I depict what attracts me to men very clearly in my illustrations and stories: Men who have a strong and clear masculinity. Confidence. Personality. Physicality. Vulnerability. Mystery.



Are you aware of why you tell the kind of stories that you tell?


Madeira Desouza: When I was 16 or 17 I wrote my very first science fiction story. As I read it printed out on paper, it hit me that I had storytelling talents. But, the process of being a storyteller is something I cannot explain in a logical way. Nor do I fully understand why I tell the stories that I do. My stories come from “somewhere” but I am not conscious of where that place might be. I do not sit down and tell myself that I’m going to “be creative” and “write a story.” My storytelling “happens by itself” even if that may sound mysterious. When I reached adulthood I created an illustrated science fiction time travel adventure entitled BAJA CLAVIUS. It “came from somewhere” that I cannot point to. BAJA CLAVIUS is a science fiction about time travel that also happens to be faithful to the bara genre of art and storytelling that originated in Japan during the 20th century.


How did you get started doing illustrations?


Madeira Desouza: I happened to see the compelling drawings of Dom “Etienne” Orejudos and Tom of Finland. Both men lived and died in the 20th century, but we still have large collections of their unique underground art. I was inspired by their work and felt compelled to produce visually stunning images like they did. Technology helps me express myself and my sexual orientation. In 2007 I started using a computer and software that gave me the chance to create similar works to those two underground artists that inspired me. I use technology rather than pencil or pen upon paper to express myself. Every image that I create tells a specific story in very visual and very emotional ways.


Do you care about the differences between those who create using digital technology versus those who use old-school methods?


Madeira Desouza: I was in an Apple store once when I saw a store employee wearing a T-shirt that proclaimed, “I paint with a computer.” That really impressed me! I believe as many people nowadays do that “painting with a computer” is the new normal. The traditional, manual methods will always be available to those who want to create using those methods. But, I prefer using the 21st century methods because that’s just how my mind works. Martin of Holland once criticized me in a personal email to me in which he expressed his strong opinion that those (like himself) who used traditional methods were the only ones who should be considered “real” or “authentic” artists. He’s gone now and I don’t speak ill of the dead. But, considerations of who is “real” or “authentic” as an artist belong solely to past centuries.


Do you consider yourself to be an artist or an illustrator?


Madeira Desouza: I choose to define myself as a digital illustrator. What I do is also called 3D digital art. So, it is true that I am a 3D digital artist. But, by whatever name, I want other gay men around the world to have the opportunity to see the visual works that I create and read the stories that I write. That’s why I use digital technologies to share my creations rather than brick and mortar art galleries or physical books.


What have other gay men said about your work?


Madeira Desouza: One gay blogger wrote that I am a philosophical CG artist. I take that to mean that my works demand that one think about what’s being shown or revealed as compared to passively viewing it. The observer gains a lot if he puts in some mental work during the viewing experience. Because viewers are invited to think about what’s being shown, I accept that what I do is not necessarily going to appeal to any so-called “mass audience” out there in the world. Yet, I get emails from guys who obviously “get” what I’m trying to do. One comment explains what I mean. The guy wrote this: “Never have I been so aroused. I always feared to delve into my darkest fantasies but with you, I feel supported and understood. Your stories are a perfect blend of light and shadow, to put it in very simplistic terms. I confess that what also arouses me is a detail that most would find insignificant but which holds tremendous eroticism. Curled toes. That’s a soft spot of mine. I associate it with violent orgasms, when pleasure wracks the body, makes it convulse and twist right down to its toes. Thank you for your amazing work and your willingness to share it with us. I do hope to see more and more of it and praise you for your lack of fear regarding a subject most would not dare to broach.”




Do you deliberately seek to provoke?


Madeira Desouza: Guilty as charged. However, all that I create is intended strictly as fantasy and not to be misinterpreted as advocating violence against men or any antisocial or unlawful behaviors in the real world we live in.




Why do you aim to be provocative?


Madeira Desouza: When I look around me at the straight world, I regularly notice straight people who do not feel comfortable seeing masculine men showing affection towards one another. Not sure why that is, but this is a basic truth that I have come to accept about United States culture in the 21st century. In contrast, straight men and women will accept drag performers like RuPaul Charles, whom I greatly admire as a genius and always enjoy watching. Straight people derive pleasure from enjoying laughs at the satirical comedy and the sexual ironies that RuPaul excels at. I think that major Hollywood comedies featuring men in drag such as the Mike Nichols film The Birdcage are also “safe” and “unchallenging emotionally” for straight people. That nonthreatening kind of gay man is what seems to find a “mass audience” at least by Hollywood standards. I choose to depict masculine men who connect with one another emotionally, physically and sexually. Because I work within the bara genre, I use cruelty, violence, and exploitation as core themes. I have come to a high level of acceptance that my illustrations and stories are considered provocative and challenging. There is no turning back now.


Is there a story behind your name?


desouza_2012_cowboy-runningI’m a citizen of the United States, born in California. My heritage is Portuguese from both my parents. Madeira is the Portuguese word for wood. The surname comes from one of my old country grandparents.

When I was a boy, I had an irrational fear that I would turn out to be merely an ordinary man.

During journalism school, I grew to admire writers who distinguished themselves through their professional works. But, I also must confess that I developed a very strong attraction to the well-known practice of writers who use a pseudonym. I discovered in those days that Mark Twain was the pen name of Samuel Langhorne Clemens. Filtered through the perceptions of a teenage boy, that was the coolest thing I had ever come to know about the writing profession.

No surprise that Mark Twain has remained my favorite American writer of all time. Not that I think I am as good as he was or ever will be. But, I seek to be humorous like him, to tell vivid and imaginative stories like he told, and, yes, to have a memorable nom de plume like his. I created a pseudonym for myself that would sound considerably more Old World ethnic compared to my own birth name while being a name that everyone should recognize no ordinary person would ever have.

It does not really matter whether someone with a pseudonym is prominent and globally identifiable like Mark Twain or Stephen King or J.K. Rowling or Jay Z. The simple reality is that having a pseudonym is a timeworn way of differentiating yourself from everyone else.